Changes.
Sometimes I wish things would change. Sometimes I wish they'd get better, happier. Sometimes I wish I could live my whole life over, somewhere else, knowing other people, being in a happy family where everything would be easy, parents would get along with their children and the children would respect their parents for it.

Sometimes I wish I could forget everything that has happened to me.

But this isn't the case. I can't relive my life, change my past. I can't change what happened to me, what I went through. All I can do is make the most of what I have, and I'm slowly doing that. It's taking time, but I am getting there.

Nathan.
Once upon a time there was a girl. She was going through a rough patch of her life, and when she really needed some to be there for her, there was this one guy, who took time out of his life to make sure she was okay. His name is Nathan, and I still can't thank him enough for it.

Life.
Life is getting easier for me in Melbourne. I don't feel so alienated anymore. I'm getting used to trains and trams, I can now get from point A to point B without freaking out if I make a mistake.
I'm getting to know people, and now actually have friends. And my iD is coming in a few days, so I'll be able to get out and about little more which will be nice.
I miss my friends in Mildura, and wish I could pack them in my suitcase and bring them with me. But I counter balance this with regular visits which works well for me.
It lso looks like I'll be re-doing my year 12 education again next year and then getting into teaching. I'm actually looking forwards to it.

Well, there is an update for y'all.

Peace
Elif "I'm gonna make damn sure" Karakas. xx